March 2008                                Carol Adrienne, Ph.D.

Spring—peeking over the horizon--brings the gifts of a sense of renewal and new growth.  Spring lives in the human consciousness as that quality of searching for something new and nourishing. 

Each of us is blessed with a drive for self-expression.  Sometimes that self-expression feels like a reaction—not a choice—to what life throws our way. Each of us—despite many setbacks—draws deep to find the courage and the flexibility of mind to create ourselves again.  I receive many emails with questions very similar to the one posed by MKF.  I feel the theme for MKF is COMMITMENT.

In the past 9 years I've gone from almost losing my house, to moving back to my hometown, to moving to [another state] one year ago.  Needless to say, the journey has been a tumultuous one!
 
According to my numerology chart, I am in the 9 Personal Year of completion.  I seem to be at another "fork" in the road.  I just turned 60, and I seem even more restless than ever!  I don't feel that I have truly found my purpose as yet.   I can't decide what I really want to be when I grow up!  I am delighted to be living near my daughter, my son and granddaughter (a dream come true!) and participating in their daily lives.

 The practical side of me is still struggling with how to be financially secure for the future (about time I think about it!), and the spiritual side of me is yearning to be set free to do what I came here to do...just not sure what that is!  I would like to figure out how to unblock whatever it is that seems to keep popping up.  I have been trained as a Reiki master, but I am not really drawn to do that as my life's work.  I have an artistic side and people tell me how "creative" I am.  Any hints on how to find the "diamond in the rough" that might be my purpose?

Dear MKF,
    The first thing I noticed when I analyzed your birth name and birth date, was the 0 challenge you had from birth to age 33.  Numerologists call this the “mark of the Old Soul” indicating that you have lived many lifetimes, and have been able to retain and integrate much of your learning.  Sometimes I think Old Souls are not all that motivated to achieve material success.  Instead they focus on pursuing the dream of finding their identity and purpose.  However, purpose is not something we pick off the shelf.  A passion for a subject is developed over time, so commitment is essential.

Yes, you are creative. Your natural talents (Birth Path) are represented by number 3—meaning that you have a great imagination, sense of humor, good communication skills, and like things to be easy (but you might disregard achievements when they are too easy for you.)  Your motivation seems to increase (you have a 1 Heart’s Desire) when you receive accolades for your service or intelligent guidance. 

Your Destiny is a 7—a search for spiritual wisdom, and a desire to do things your own way.  Your Ultimate Goal number is a 1—so you need to put together some kind of independent practice using spiritual methods.  You may feel Reiki is not your life’s work.  However, at age sixty, questioning the “what”of your life purpose is less helpful than committing to a path and seeing where it takes you.  I suggest that you add something else to what you offer people—in addition to the Reiki.  New learning stimulates you (at least that’s what I see in your chart.)  You are not so much about outcomes as you are about jumping into something new.
    Yes, you are right.  Your material future needs attention.  Your chart shows that the need to take practical action around finances has been strong since September of 2003.  The next two years emphasis closeness with your great family, so it’s important to feel that joy as a big part of your life purpose!  If you don’t have much in the way of investments or savings, then it’s important to put together a practice that you can work within for many years.  I would suggest anything to do with psychic development, Reiki, teaching, seminars, counseling, working with young people, or, if you love them, even caring for animals.  This year, 2008, is a 1 Personal Year for you, so it is absolutely the time to plant some seeds for future growth over the next nine years—and beyond! 

The next email is from KLP

I quit my job as a waitress, and dropped out of College (I was a returning student) when I met my boyfriend (now husband.)  We have two businesses together. One of them is an online business, which promotes those who aspire to a higher consciousness.  The site also has an inspirational gift shop. I love working on this web site. I'm writing everyday, and connecting with others in order to  establish partnerships. Here's the other side: This is the first  time I have not had my own money coming in. M. is supporting the two of us  with his income (which, is not a lot), and his inheritance (which will  last maybe another year).  It might be a couple of years before the web site will make a profit.  I'm nervous about the future, but excited about the web site. My question is--based on what you see in my numbers-- is my head in the clouds, or am I on the right track?

Dear KLP       

The theme for YOU seems to be SELF-SUFFICIENCY.

    Your natural talent number (Birth Path) is a 5—which loves its freedom, is a bit of a rebel, and is not afraid of taking risks.  However, your Destiny number (from your birth name) is a 22/4.  This suggests that you have lessons to learn about practicality and perseverance.   The 22/4 is called “the master builder” and is usually interested in visionary projects such as your online business seems to be.  The big lesson for 22/4 is to take full responsibility for one’s actions and their consequences. 

I see that you have another master number 11/2 as your Heart’s Desire (what is most important.)  Eleven’s love being in partnership (despite your freedom-loving 5 Birth Path.) It is no surprise, then, that you chose to drop out of college when you met your husband, and throw in your lot with him in two businesses. 

The two major lessons you are learning from age 41 to 49 are from your Pinnacle # 1 with a Challenge # 1.  Both 1’s are highlighting independence, self-sufficiency, and developing original ideas—all of which you seem to be doing.  However, with both a 1 Pinnacle (signifying accomplishment) and a 1 Challenge (signifying a test) I think you need to be very careful to accept full responsibility for your own income. 

If you feel anxious about your husband’s ability to support the two of you, it’s up to you to take care of that feeling—not him.  This gets back to your 22/4 Destiny—which teaches us to take full responsibility for our actions without falling into the trap of blaming others or circumstances.  

You were on a path to develop yourself in college, but gave it up to be in business with your husband.  You enjoy the web site development, but—practically—are you depending on it to pay your household bills?  I think there is a good chance the web site could do well, but the question is by what time?  In looking at your chart, I see a 5 Essence for the next four years, until 2012, which signifies unexpected changes, uncertainties and having more than one stream of income.  You may not want to take a 9 to 5 job, but you probably need another source of income.  Celebrate the good start you have made in your creative web site!

Joyful moments in March to everyone!
Carol Adrienne, Ph.D.

Carol Adrienne, Ph.D. is an intuitive counselor and life coach who has helped thousands of people work through doubt, procrastination, and obstacles to create the life they want to live. Private consultations and coaching available. Contact her at Carol22@sonic.net