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August 2007 Carol Adrienne, Ph.D.
MCD, a glass artist, from Quebec writes
“I will turn 50 in September and this year it feels as if my whole is life falling apart. After being repeatedly rejected for art contests, exhibits, and a research grant, I have had only one juried selection. My work is not selling enough, despite the fact that everyone loves the products. I decided to close my heart’s dream glass studio. I just applied for my MA in art, but was refused. Since March I have applied for many related jobs in my field of sixteen years: French as a second language, and was not selected.
Where I am supposed to go? What is my mission? I had combined teaching and art and was good and happy in those two fields. I am a single mother and fear my immediate future. What am I not seeing?
Dear MCD,
I appreciate your situation. I, too, was a single mother, and pursued a career in painting until my mid-forties. I love color, sitting quietly, and painting. However, I cannot say that I loved the marketing aspect of my then-career. Today, I no longer paint, but I do consider myself an artist at heart, even though I now make my living as an author and life coach
The Artist Within Stretches Us
I will try to shed some numerological light on your question analyzing your birth name and birth date (thank you for sending them.) But first, I hope you will indulge me for a moment in taking an artistic liberty. Your question prompted me to think of Vincent van Gogh—certainly a good example of a struggling artist. I suddenly wondered, What if Vincent van Gogh (a terrific letter writer, whom many authors quote for his wisdom) had written to me about his artistic plight? Perhaps, he might have said:
“Dear Ms. Adrienne,
I have been painting for several years, but so far have sold only one painting, (Red Vineyard at Arles.) While I love color more than anything, I don’t know if art is the purpose I’m here to fulfill. So far, nothing is working out in my life.
I have had a good upbringing with much devotion and culture. (As an aside, I have always thought it odd that my mother had a previous stillborn son, whom she named Vincent before me.)
Others see me as somewhat emotional, and frankly, I lack confidence in myself. In the past few years since1860 I have decided to become an artist. During this period I have had two unhappy romances, and have worked unsuccessfully as a clerk in a bookstore, an art salesman, and a preacher in a rather dreary mining district in Belgium. In this last position, I was dismissed for being over-zealous. I admit that sometimes I feel things too deeply.
I remained in Belgium to study art, determined to give happiness by creating beauty. I am very poor, but I would rather spend what little money I have on art supplies than food. Also, I should mention that I have been in and out of mental asylums, as I am frequently severely depressed. But for my brother, Theo, I don’t know what will become of me. What do you see for me?” Vincent van Gogh
How Long Does Our Destiny Unfold?
Dear VVG,
Thank you for sharing these difficult times with me. From your birth name, I see that the name Vincent has the master number 33/6 vibration—showing that you feel deeply and have something to teach others. Van Gogh is another master number—11/2—indicating that you are very sensitive, humble, and yet able to inspire others.
Both your month--March (3)-- and day, 30--give you the vibration of 3—love of color, beauty, and art. This 3 vibration is amplified three more times in your chart, most importantly through your 3 Heart’s Desire (desire for self-expression and, in your case, sensitivity to color.)
Taking into account your reputation for unconventionality and over-zealousness, some of your trouble may lie in the total of your birth date, which is the karmic number 14/5. This number is further amplified by your also having 14 letters in your name. Fourteen is one of the numbers signifying a condition from a past life (or lives) that is being worked through once again. The number 14 insists on freedom, resists rules, and often makes a person extremely unconventional. In this case, I wonder if your artistic expression (or perhaps avant-garde thinking) was suppressed in a previous lifetime? Fourteen often means that a person has an inordinate desire for freedom or an excessive and disruptive streak that works against success.
I see a “cross over the mouth” in your chart, Vincent, which could represent past experiences with censure or retribution for heretical ideas. However, in other lifetimes, you obviously had a talent for theories, writing, or invention (as shown by the perfect balance in both your “line of artistic talent” and your “line of mental prowess.”
Your life does seem to give you many challenges through these karmic and master numbers. Your Destiny, for example, is yet another master number 44/8, which indicates a path of trying to master the material aspects of money, status, and professionalism. In your case, Vincent, this material success will actually take some time to be achieved. If it is any solace to you now, all your paintings will be sold in the future—for millions and millions. For example, that portrait you made of Dr.Gachet, your physician, will be sold for $82.5 million dollars to a Japanese businessman in 1990.
Dear Vincent, your chart shows that you are an old soul. Old souls often seem to encounter extreme challenges in order to fulfill their purpose of completing karma or expanding their earthly experiences. Your lifetime challenge (5) is to grapple with your extreme need for freedom, and to carry on despite your unstable physical body (which physicians eventually may diagnose as epilepsy.) Unfortunately, medical advances have not been made yet to address your condition.
Despite the difficulties of living that you face, ultimately, what gives meaning to your life is your response to color and what you see beyond ordinary perception. Therein lies your salvation despite what happens in physical reality. Your Ultimate Goal number, Vincent, is 13/4—the karmic number of death, rebirth, and transformation. Only time will reveal that you have indeed been a transformer of perception on a world-wide scale.”
Now, MCD, back to your own life and your question, “What am I not seeing?”
Learning to Trust and Accept Ourselves is Part of Our Life Purpose
Of course, I do not have the benefit of historical facts, such as I can access with the life of Vincent van Gogh. However, I can tell you that, numerologically, your Destiny (from the birth name) is a karmic number 19/1. Nineteen means that part of your life purpose is to continue to re-invent yourself, trust yourself, and develop your personal talents (1.) The 19 aspect of the 1 Destiny would say that you, too, like Vincent van Gogh, may have suffered in past lives when trying to do something different or unique. In your current lifetime, you have another opportunity to believe in yourself—and to put your heart into a talent, as you obviously did with your glass blowing studio. Avoid the temptation to think you have done anything “wrong.” Economic conditions may be beyond your control in this case (despite our best use of our positive thinking.) However, even poor economic conditions may stimulate a deeper purpose within our own life.
Times Change
Looking at the influences in your numerology chart, it’s not surprising that times have changed, causing you to close your studio. The time most suited for your entrepreneurial pursuit was in the last ten years or so, between the ages of 39 and 47 (although other indications show that creating that business was not an easy road for you.)
Challenges are Purposeful
Your 16/7 Birth Path is another karmic reminder that you will encounter certain people or situations in this life that evoke past connections. Disappointments or setbacks are part of this 16/7 path, giving you a chance to become more spiritually aware. Sixteen also indicates that you have sometimes been a catalyst for others, without, perhaps, even knowing it.
Despite the spiritual depth of your nature (16/7,) from which your artistic abilities arise, you should succeed in material life as shown by your Ultimate Goal of 8—money, power, authority, and success. I can hear you ask, When does this start, then?!
Do That Which is in Front of You
This year, 2007, is a time for testing your powers of optimism and keeping a sense of humor (3 Personal Year.) I would say that the key to the next two years (up till about September of 2009) lies in “not pushing the river.” You are in a 2 Essence in the next two years, which to me, would say, slow down, make no big gestures, and go with whatever flow comes in. It’s possible success will come from a partnership (2) or assisting someone else in their business. Bide your time, and yet set an intention to look for the beauty (2) in each day. You still show a strong streak of creativity, which is not going away. Perhaps you will be attracted to another artistic medium.
Life Demands Creativity at Every Moment
This period of the 2 Essence until 2009 definitely resonates nicely with your 2 Heart’s Desire (to inspire others and to create harmony.) A strong creative effort flourishes again in your mid-fifties, so keep developing your eye. In the meantime, find a job that pays the bills and create a life of security and intimacy until such time as you can see another way (probably around age 58.)
Happy August to everyone,
Carol Adrienne
Carol Adrienne, Ph.D. is an intuitive counselor and life coach who has helped thousands of people work through doubt, procrastination, and obstacles to create the life they want to live. Private consultations and coaching available. Contact her at
Carol@caroladrienne.com
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Podcast Interviews
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Sharing the Path as Mothers and Daughters, with host Cheryl McLaughlin on From Her Court Radio Show on BlogTalk Radio: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/fromhercourt
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Events 2007
Saturday, September 8, 2007 9:30 - 1:00 pm Sacramento, California
Learning Exchange, Uncover Your Passion and Purpose—Part 1: Move Past Fear and Power Struggles to Free Your True Identity For details and to register: http://www.learningexchange.com 1111 Howe Ave., Suite 125 95825 (916) 929-9200
Saturday, September 8, 2007 2:00 pm - 5:30 pm Sacramento, California
Learning Exchange, Uncover Your Passion and Purpose—Part 2: Discover Who You Are, Where You Want to Go, and the Most Direct Way to Get There For details and to register: http://www.learningexchange.com 1111 Howe Ave., Suite 125 95825 (916) 929-9200
Mondays, Sept. 10 to Oct., 15, 2007 7:15pm - 9:30 pm El Cerrito, California
Find Your Purpose, Change Your Life Intensive, intuitive coaching to help you get clear on who you are, how to play to your strengths, and focus on the next step—an beyond. Six evenings, $275. Limit 8 people. For details email carol@caroladrienne.com
Thursday September 13th, 2007 6:30 pm - 9:30 pm San Francisco, California
Learning Annex, How to Date and Find a Mate… If You Are Over 40
For details or to register http://www.learningannex.com or call (415) 788-5500
Thursday September 20, 2007 2:00 pm - 6:00 pm Seattle, Washington
Friday September 21 10:00 am – 3:00 pm
Private one-hour life plan consultations: $150 Location TBA
Consultations include a free copy of Carol’s 30 page numerology Primary Life Chart
Friday, September 21, 2007 6:30 pm -9:30 pm Seattle, Washington
Increase The Flow Of Synchronicity In Your Life So You Can Create The Life You Really Want For details and to register http://www.DiscoverU.org or phone: 206.365.0400
Saturday, September 22, 2007 9:30 am-12:30 pm Seattle, Washington
Getting Past Fear To Make Changes: Learn How To Find Your Negative Core Beliefs & Get Unstuck For details and to register http://www.DiscoverU.org or phone: 206.365.0400
Saturday, September 22, 2007 1:00-4:00 pm Seattle, Washington
Discover U, Introduction To Your Life Purpose: Discover The Five Steps to Finding What You Are Meant To Do For details and to register http://www.DiscoverU.org or phone: 206.365.0400
Tuesday, October 30, 2007 6:30 pm – 9:30 pm San Francisco, California
Learning Annex, Learning Annex, How to Date and Find a Mate… If You Are Over 40
(Women only.) For details or to register http://www.learningannex.com or call (415) 788-5500
Saturday, January 5, 2008, 10 am – 1 pm San Francisco, California
Learning Annex, Learning Annex, How to Date and Find a Mate… If You Are Over 40
(Women only.) For details or to register http://www.learningannex.com or call (415) 788-5500
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